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[09 Apr 2005|03:11pm]
I'm so angry right now. I can't go to Nate's party tonight because "I don't spend enough time with my parents."

I love them but they get on my nerves sometimes! Ugh.

I wanted to see Tyler, too

Well...I'll update later...if i'm not 'too busy to spend time with my parents'. sheesh!
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[05 Apr 2005|04:00pm]
[ mood | Confused ]

I'm confused.

Dylan's not mad about the whole 'Tyler' thing. Which is good. I guess.

What I don't understand though, is why he's not mad? I mean. If he would start dating someone else so soon after we broke up, I'd be upset. Hell. I' was upset with myself after I started with Tyler. It makes me question whether he really loved me or not. and It makes me want to cry. Apparently he and Tyler talked last night, and I didn't figure nice things were said. Because when I got up this morning, Tyler left me a message that said "I have something to show you, and it isn't pretty.Hm....

On top of all of that I've been SO busy. Student council meeting on top of student council meeting, along with homework and things around the house. I'm suprised I haven't broke down yet. But It will happen soon enough. I just have to remember to keep putting on a happy face

Well. speaking of homework, I should go get started. Bye!

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California Dreaming! [03 Apr 2005|09:08pm]
I was pretty depressed a few days ago...but I've been majorly cheered up. Mainly in the last couple of days. This weekend has been great!

Yesterday I took Tyler his present, since I didn't see him on Friday. Both of us got a present, however. I ended up almost kissing him, but shyed away. Eventually, HE KISSED ME! It was nice. I've been waiting for that for as long as I can remember. It was almost magical.

We've been talking since, and I'm pretty sure he wants to take. I'd like to date him...but....I'm just a little confused. I mean...I just officially ended things with Dylan. Is this too soon?

So other than that nothing too much has been going on. I'm excited for these next few weeks. Prom's coming up in a few weeks, and although I don't have a date, I still want to go.

And what comes with prom but the end of my presidency, of course. I'm excited for that. But...I know i'm going to miss it. I don't really care though. I know I'd rather NOT do it for another year, so I'm not going to.

Something I do have to do next year though: Homework. I should get on that.

Edit: I think I'm falling for him more and more each minute
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[31 Mar 2005|08:52pm]
First of all...Dylan...I can't catch you online, so I'm just going to say this here.

I'm Sorry

For everything. For being immature. For not being understanding. I'm sorry.

Secondly , things have been so hectic. I probably wont be around much this weekend. I have to catch up on so many things and that is my only opportunity. So...i need to go to bed. I need as much sleep as I can get.

((ooc: Like Marco, I'm currently SWAMPED with schoolwork. Sorry I havent been as active as normal. I've really been trying but spring quarter has just started and i've been dying. I dont think i'll be able to get my 3 entries in either....sorry. Next week I will try my hardest to get 3 and comment. Just a heads up))
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[28 Mar 2005|06:05pm]
Well I'm glad everyone seemed to have fun in Montreal! Its good to hear. I wish I could have been there with all of you.

Instead I had to stay here for some stupid "Leadership Convention" which wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I represented DCS which was cool, I guess.

On another more depressing note, Dylan and I fought the other day. As far as I know we're....over? I don't know , its always hard to tell with these things. I'm just sick of feeling inadequate, and fighting, and...just everything. I don't know. sometimes I just wish he would call, or write me, or something. Its only been a couple of days and I miss him

Well, other than that nothing has been going on. Oh, the exciting life i lead.
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[24 Mar 2005|02:24pm]
He wants an "Open Relationship".

I really don't know how I feel about that. Honestly. I mean, I hate the idea, because it makes me wonder why he can't be happy with just me. Ugh, I don't understand. So I guess i'm single...kind of? I don't know. I'm so confused

I just need to sleep.
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[23 Mar 2005|01:30pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I didn't sleep too well last night. I talked to Dylan at his dorm last night. He had hurt his leg at hockey practice. If that wasn't bad enough, he told me something that I had always suspected, and my fears had come true. I was a little manic-depressive last night, but now i'm feeling much better. I'm still not completely happy. I just need to talk to him..

Anyway...other than that nothing too much has happened. School was school.

Now that I am starting to think about things again...I should probably go.

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[22 Mar 2005|09:30pm]
I knew it.
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[21 Mar 2005|01:54pm]
Today was absolutely great.

I got up this morning, sent Dylan an email, and went to school. It was pretty easy today and suprisingly I have no homework, and I'm glad.

Tonight i'm looking to do something with everyone? You guys up for it? Anything but skating, though.
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[19 Mar 2005|09:01am]
[ mood | shocked ]

Oh. My. Gosh. Last night I fell asleep at 9:30 What the heck?

Tyler, I guess you were right when you said I go to bed around Eight. Ugh.

I think I mainly fell asleep because No one was doing anything and I was not feeling so well. I couldn't get a hold of anyone. I must be caught in some sort of 'bermuda triangle' type thing, that whoever I call/try to get in contact with isnt there or wont answer. Who knows.

Well anyway, because I went to bed so early, I woke up at 7. Yes. Thats right. Seven on a Saturday. Not cool.

I have to do something today! I have to get out of this house!

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[16 Mar 2005|03:52pm]
Gosh have I been busy.

I just finished a 5 page paper for Kwan's class. It was killer. Thank god I have it done, though.

Tomorrow I have to write a speech for the pep rally on Friday, I have so much work to do, i'm going to go inane!

..Maybe I should get to work on it instead of complaining about it on Livejournal?
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[14 Mar 2005|12:28pm]
Last night was so much fun!

Dylan and I went to this ice rink that he hadn't been to for years. It was really great, actually. I was a pretty bad beginner, but after a while I got used to it, and it was easier. Dylan helped me to, uh, not fall, which was beneficial. We got some nasty stares from people, but who cares. I had so much fun.

This coming week. Oh, I don't even want to start it. Hopefully though it won't be as unbearable as I think it's going to be. Oh well.

Well I should get going. Anyone doing anything later? I could use a 'break-time hangout' at the Dot.
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[11 Mar 2005|01:01pm]
Dylan and I hung out last night.

Not for long, however. We did get to talk for a bit, but I could tell he was obviously tired, so I told him to go home and get some rest. I hope he did that. He looked exhausted last night. He said he was going to call me today, and we were going to do something later. I hope we still can.

This week at school has been so hectic! Next week is going to be as equally hectic. Im definitely not looking forward to it! All I want to do this weekend is let loose, and thats all I plan on doing.

If anyone is doing anything, let me know!
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Nobody's Home [07 Mar 2005|05:28pm]
[ mood | Better ]

So I'm better, both physically and emotionally than I have been the last few days. I think I just needed massive amounts of sleep and a break from the whole 'work' thing. I'm counting down the days until my 'presidential term' is over, believe me.

As for that, nothing's really going on with it, actually. We've just been planning the prom and fundraisers, and the class trip, among other things. It seems like a lot more than it actually feels like. Who knows. Maybe I'm just weird.

It's only Monday too. Man, this week has been going so slowly. Anyone up for a get together at our favorite place this weekend? I probably don't have to ask, but I like to be organizational. It's a flaw.

Its just a tired start to a dull week. I can't wait for the weekend , though! I don't have anything planned but I'm sure something worthwhile is happening!

I should probably get my homework done, Ciao!

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I made it through the rain [05 Mar 2005|11:26pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I apologize for not updating for a few days. I've been really busy healing. My sides are still killing me.

Nothing's really been going on. I guess that's why I haven't really written about anything. Nothing is new, either. Everything is just kind of...dull.

The other night, Tyler and I went to the Dot. We ended up talking about...uhm...things, and I was glad to have him there to talk to. The next day I talked to Dylan, too. At first he was really angry, but afterword he calmed down some. I just want all of this stuff to be over, honestly. its a good thing those guys are being prosecuted. I'm glad I didn't have to go through a lenghty trial, like Paige did. Its all over and I couldn't feel more relieved

Speaking of Dylan. I'm going to go look for him. We havent talked since Thursday, i'm pretty sure. I want to see him, also! I hope I can see him before school starts up again on Monday. We'll see, though.

Anyway. I'm going to jet. Its pretty late and I'm tired. I'll try to write tomorrow! Ciao.

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Like a Bollywood Dream [02 Mar 2005|01:17pm]
Yesterday. When I went to lunch, this group of guys kept harassing me. It really got me down, and I don't know why. I think it's just because I'd like to think everyone likes me, even though it's not the case. When people make it blatently obvious that they dont. It hurts. It really does. However

Today has been the best day so far this week! I actually got a good night sleep, and people were pretty bearable also! No student council meeting and only a minimal amount of homework, and that's my Wednesday. Sounds great, huh? I'm glad that my week is getting better.

Oh! I almost forgot! There's a really cool Bollywood Film being shown this weekend at the Duplex. Anyone up for a bite to eat and a movie? I'll even pay if you don't have any money. I'm feeling generous lately :).

And speaking of hanging out, does anyone want to go to Dylan's hockey match tonight? Its at 6. If so, meet me at the stadium!

I need to go get started on my homework, ciao!
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In my life , there's been heartache and pain [28 Feb 2005|12:49pm]
[ mood | Tired ]

Wow. So my weekend was....uh....pretty uninteresting.

Friday night I pretty much spent by myself. I did homework.. I know. I'm a loser. I couldn't get a hold of anyone, though! I called Paige, Dylan, and even Liberty (sorry Liberty, I didn't mean it in a bad way)

Saturday I didn't do too much either. Later in the day I went over to Dylan's dorm and brought some of mom's famous pasta /sauce. He really liked it. (i'm sure, eating anything else other than Mac N. Cheese for a change would be great). We hung out for a bit, then he gave me a piggy back ride to JT's, and we hung out. I came home soon after and went to bed.

Sunday was more homework/student council stuff. It was really ...not fun? I don't know. I'm just sick of doing all this work. I'm going to be so happy when I don't have to worry about all of these things constantly.

Today was okay. I couldn't sleep last night, though. I didnt get to bed until 2:30, and trust me, running on 3.5 hours of sleep is definitely not fun. I'm just glad todays nearly over, and luckily I don't have any homework due tomorrow. So I'm going to go home and nap!

I should probably go now, Ciao!

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[24 Feb 2005|12:26pm]
[ mood | My Hand Hurts ]

So last night. last night was great. Okay thats not very nice of me to say. But it's true.

Everything came to a head. I went to Dylans dorm to be sappy and couple-y and such for a few hours and you'll never guess who I ran into. Yes. Evan was there. I tried being nice to the boy. I swear I did. He was being a really big jerk though. He kept trying to cause tension and drama between everyone and eventually I crumbled.

I got really angry and told him what I really thought. We exchanged a few choice words and eventually I hit him! Right in the face! I'm not proud of it or anything,(Okay, maybe a little bit. He deserved it!) And I wanted to again and again and again. and my hand hurts a little from it. But after that he left and I felt pretty horrible about it. I don't hit people. Ever. I don't fight with anyone. I'm usually everyone's friend, but he's just.....I can't even describe it. I'm not a very good role-model, huh :/

Well leaving last night was a little awkward. I saw the door to his(evan, that is) room was open a little, and when I finally noticed it was open. it slammed shut. Almost like he was waiting for me to come out of Dylans room. Luckily I didn't come across him anymore, that probably wouldn't have turned out too well.

Anyway. I feel bad, and I want to apologize to him. Maybe i'll send him a card or something. I don't want to be in contact with him for a long while. But, never again would be nice

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You would cry too if it happened to you [20 Feb 2005|11:11am]
[ mood | hungover ]

So the whole "Marco Dylan weekend extravaganza" Hasn't exactly been going as planned. We've hung out a little, but I haven't talked to him for a long while. He probably got dragged off somewhere with one of his roomates. I was really looking forward to this weekend too. Hm...maybe today we'll do something. That is , if I feel better.

Yes, last night was a little....dumb of me. I now have a huge hangover. I got really trashed and probably shouldn't have drank, but I guess it was because I was a little sad, and plus I was trying to liven up the party a little anyway.

After a while of drinking. I got pretty sick. I don't remember much, I just remember I was carried to JT's bed by Tyler. Thanks again, man, for taking care of me. So after that, I woke up in JT's bed, with a huge hangover, and now i'm here. I think i'm going to take an advil, lay down, and wait for Dylan to call.

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[19 Feb 2005|08:08pm]
[ mood | content ]

Sorry about the craziness of the last entry.

Since everyone is wondering about what I was so crazy about, I'll just tell everyone now. Once.

Well About a week or so ago, I was at a party, everyone was there and I was having a good time, and Tyler was there. He didn't seem to be having a good time, (he was drunk I believe) so I went to talk to him. After that I kind of developed a little bit of a crush on him. I , being not single, thought of myself as being a horrible horrible person, and I was going to keep it to myself, but I decided to talk to Terri, and Paige. They told me I wasn't a horrible person, as long as I didn't act on my emotions. I haven't, and don't plan on it. So that should be okay.

I ended up telling Dylan, too. It was such a stressful conversation. I mean, we may have almost broken up that night ,and I don't ever want that. I love him so much, and I couldn't let him be hurt by my stupid feelings.

That's the story. Now it's time to go back to the Marco/Dylan weekend extravaganza!

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